Can't Sleep

Alas she can not sleep
She lies in bed eyes closed, in vain
If only it were sugar plums dancing in her head
Her mind simply will not rest
All the things of the day flood her thoughts
Perhaps she could have said this differently or not said that at all
Wait she forgot the night time meds
Her mind pushes ahead to all the things to do tomorrow
Unpack, get organized
This should go there, that could go here or maybe here
Does she drive all the way back home early to finish up the chores
Or does she leave it for another day
After all, no one would blame her.
Her mind takes her everywhere but 11:30
Why?
Is she avoiding?
Is she afraid?
No, more disappointed
She wonders "how should she feel?"
But quickly remembers "shoulds" have been banished from her paradigm
A better question perhaps "how does she feel?"
It feels like nothing
Is it numbness or peace?
She thinks peace but can't be sure at this time of night
Sleep! She'd really rather be sleeping
Instead of analyzing her feelings, in vain